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The visit and what I miss the most.

I’ve been meaning to write another post for about a week now.  I’ve finally gotten frustrated enough to do so.  I tried writing last night and it didn’t go well… at all.  haha

Writing has never been easy for me (as I mentioned in a previous post).  When I have someone else in the same room to bounce ideas off of, though – or dare I say impress – it’s completely different.  We feed off of each other and writing just… it just comes so naturally for me.  I enjoy it so much more than I will ever enjoy writing by myself.

The entire experience of writing a song changed when he was working alongside me.  We shifted gears in an instant when one of us sang a melody/lyric that fit more than the last one; we came up with 5 different melodies to the same set of lyrics in as many runs through; we asked for and received instant feedback; we gave suggestions when something didn’t seem to be working for the other person. We supported each other in every capacity.

And then we celebrated. We celebrated the perfect harmony, lyric, mix and song; we celebrated with looks, smiles, screams of excitement, hugs and high fives.  Sometimes there was simply an understanding between the two of us that what we were working on was something great.

And in our “down time” we messed around and were silly; we sang along to Alicia Keys and Linkin Park to get our voices “right”; we – I mean he – impersonated other musicians; we watched a horrible movie about a guy being trapped in a space station for 6 years as he “traveled through space and time”; we looked to the future and talked about how we’d finish up the project after he left. But in our subconsciousness, getting back to work was there.  It was always there.  We had only 7 days (which turned into 10), so we had to make them all count.

I miss him a little bit.  I missed him and the talent he encompasses the second I turned around with tears in my eyes to leave him at the airport.  (Hey now…I’m a very emotional person.  Don’t judge me!)  He inspires me in so many ways and more than he could ever fathom. I simply cannot find the words that would even come close to describing what he brings into my life just by living his.

I think what I miss most, though… is us working together.

I can’t wait to finish this album.


Songwriting, Love, Pain and Sociopaths.


Songwriting.  It’s never come easy for me; I don’t imagine it ever will.  That doesn’t mean I’m going to stop, though.  Sure, I may not write as much or as as quickly as I used to, but at least the songs I do write now have more meaning behind them.  That’s what matters to me – meaning.

As a follower of my music, you will notice that I write a lot about relationships.  Relationships inspire me.  Drama inspires me.  So unless I’m going through drama, I probably won’t be writing much music.  And hey, guess what.  I’m not going through drama, so I haven’t been writing very much. haha

Nowadays, when I just can’t take it anymore and sit down to write a new song, I have to force myself to remember the pain.  That’s an incredibly awesome notion for some people.  People who are heartbroken in any sense would love to get to a point in their lives where they have less pain and  have enough distance from that pain so that effort is required to recollect it.  That’s where I am.  But as a musician, it doesn’t leave me very inspired on a daily basis… not when my forte is writing about heartache and pain.

Someone once told me to write about something everyone could relate to.  I believe the person’s exact words were “the world, politics, everyday struggle”… and went on to say that some people are happy in a relationship, so to stay away from my usual content.  Say what?!  Love is a universal language!  Pain of losing someone you love… unless you’re a sociopath… is something everyone can relate to!

(Let me digress for a moment:  From what little I know, sociopaths still feel pain of loss, just not necessarily the pain of losing someone.  If/when they do feel the pain of losing someone, it’s very short-lived and then they move on without reliving the past.  Fascinating, really.  I’ve known a couple of sociopaths in my time.  You probably have, too – maybe you just weren’t aware of it. I still have a lot to learn about them, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to spend time getting to really know how a sociopath’s mind works.)

Oh right… songwriting.  I started writing in December 2005.  I remember lying in my parent’s spare room during Christmas vacation and listening to Missy Higgin’s debut album that I had recently purchased.  I’m pretty sure “The Special Two” is the song I was listening to when I finally said, “Man, I really need to start writing music.”  I then got out of bed, went to my parent’s computer, hooked up a cheap desktop mic and wrote my first half-verse.  Maybe I’ll post it here someday; not many people have heard it.  I think it ended up being a verse and a chorus – or, at least, what I thought to be a verse and chorus at the time.  haha

Ideally, I’d have enough patience to learn piano or guitar so that my music could sound more like Missy’s.  I don’t see that happening, but you never know what the future may bring.  That being said, I’ll leave you with the song that inspired me to start writing.

“But I will fight for you.  Be sure that I will fight until we’re the special two once again.”